For anyone who knows me, has seen me at the gym, or just come across any of my facebook postings, knows that I LIVE in the gym. (I know I workout 12+ hours per week, not including working with clients.) You may also know that I am getting ready for a figure competition (because I have only been talking/typing about it for more than 2 months now.) So for you that don’t know what this equates to, I am on a diet, and I am on supercharge at the gym, which means I am freaking exhausted sometimes. Sometimes I am so tired that I could just start crying, (though that has yet to happen.) What does happen most days is that I grab some coffee (black with Stevia…yuck) and keep it moving with my day.
I haven’t decreased my working schedule. I still have responsibilities with my everyday life. And I still have relationships to maintain. Basically my life has not stopped because I am tired or hungry, or most days BOTH. But just know, I may not always be hopping all over the place full of energy and laughing and vivacious like I was pre-competition prep. I have had someone say that I am “in a bad mood.” I have had folks ask me if I was “OK.” I had a lady tell me I look tired, (even though I just told her that I had just done my second cardio session that day.) And just today a random lady let me know that my not-smiling really hurts her. (I was kinda confused about that considering I don’t even know her…but whatev.)
While I am NOT asking for any sympathy, I am just trying to make y’all understand what I am going through…good and bad. Everyday is NOT awesome. My brain hurts sometimes from the mental exhaustion. My body is usually tired. But this is what I signed up for. I have gained SOOO much knowledge and understanding of my body and nutrition. And I have also gained the most physically fit (read: smoking HOT) body that I have ever had. But through all this, there has been sacrifice and hard work and an extreme expenditure of (mental and physical) energy. So don’t expect my megawatt smile all the time. I am not mad, or sad, or mean, I am just tired or hungry or BOTH! I will be back to the old me in less than a month…so gimme some leeway…please 🙂